Wednesday, February 4, 2026

IWSG: Re-reading early works

 


Its the first Wednesday in February already. That means, time for the Insecure Writers Support Group post. Click here for the IWSG  participant linky and posting details.

This month's co-hosts are: J Lenni Dorner, Victoria Marie Lees, and Sandra Cox. Be sure to visit their blogs and show your IWSG support.

February 4 question - Many writers have written about the experience of rereading their work years later. Have you reread any of your early works? What was that experience like for you?

Yes, I have re-read many of my earlier works. Some of my early work re-reads have sparked new ideas that allowed me to send for publishing. These are usually short stories. Sometimes I read something I put aside, and get ideas to create longer stories. Sometimes I re-read that stuff and get the best laugh I've had in months/years. Like - wow, what sparked that nonsense! And sometimes I re-read and tell myself I can't wait to get back to writing on the project - and it never happens.

Even over the last few years of "not writing" I've revisited several projects, made some editing notes, or actual re-writes. Or just enjoyed reading something I created, even if I did not make any changes (except in my minds eye). I think its a good thing to re-read old projects - I find it helpful to remind myself of how far I've come in my writing journey, but to also remember that I enjoyed the act of creating a story, even if just for myself.

I wrote my first full novella (at the time I thought it was a novel) during high school. It took me about two years to complete. My English teacher read it, and said it was pretty good. He talked to my parents and wanted to enter it into a Children's writing contest of some sort. My parents said no, of course, there would be fees and things they had to agree to. And the book went into a pile of memorabilia. That ended my aspirations at becoming the next Louisa May Alcott.

I don't know why, but I've carried that hand written folder with me all these years (about 50), sometimes forgetting I have it, then finding it again when I'm clearing out old stuff I never look at. Oddly, its never hit the trash bin, though that's always my first instinct. Well, yes it has hit the trash, then I pull it out. When I first started writing again - as an adult with lots of life experience behind me - I re-read it, and thought maybe I should re-write it. But I never have, not even to type it into a computer document.

Its kind of my own secret. Nobody has read it in my family - I don't think so anyways. Everyone knows I have it, but its just my high school thing. And maybe that's why I don't do anything with it. The story defined a period in my childhood, and maybe working on it now, with my adult mind, will take away the innocence of youth, and the dream of a fabulous life after foster care.

The project I'm working on now is sort of a re-read/re-write. I lost it on the computer, but found it in print form. I'm attempting not to make any changes until I get it all in a word document. Data entry first, right?!?

So my own question to you is: do you have anything you kept from your early writing days and re-read just to remind yourself of who you were then, and how far you have come now?

Wednesday, January 7, 2026

IWSG: 2026 WRITING PLANS

 This post is for the first Insecure Writers Support Group of the year 2026.





Honestly, I don't remember how to make a post after the years I've been absent from blogging. So, cut me a break if the writing is not up to your standards. I actually had to experiment and re-learn how to post on blogger.

The IWSG hosts for this installment are: Shannon Lawrence, Olga Goddim, Jean Davis, Jacqui Murray.

Please be sure to visit their posts and thank them for their support.

I'm going to keep this simple and just answer the January 7 question: Is there anything in your writing plans for 2026 that you are going to do that you couldn't get done in 2025?

Well, write, lol. Or, copy/type into a word document. I'm doing the usual end-of-year cleaning out of cupboards and forgotten stash holes, and found a box that has printed copies of some books I lost in a computer return long years ago. I'm a busy busy person in my working life, so I thought about paying someone - maybe a grandchild that needs money - to just type in from the printed book. But once I started doing this re-typing myself, I found it a difficult job just to write it as-is. That editing demon wants to change every word, or sentence.

So I decided this is a great exercise in writing - or reading - for me. I've always been a harsh critic when reading other writers drafts, and maybe this is my opportunity to learn something about my own writing. From the first sentence I typed I realized I haven't created a word document in so long I don't remember how to set up the header, page numbers, paragraph indentations. As silly as it sounds, word processing has changed so much in the 4-5 years since I consistently used Microsoft Works that I have to relearn almost everything.

Now, you young people probably don't get this, but the world of document writing has drastically changed since I started my secretarial/data entry career. I started with WordStar on an Apple II-e. No, I started in middle school on an Olympia typewriter. Maybe not Olympia, but its the brand I can remember now. But typewriter, and if you've never used one, or never watched a retro show that has one, then don't strain your brain to figure it out. The point I'm making is, I have to learn all over again how to create a document.

I think its a good thing for me to re-start my writing by copying a book I've already written. While initially writing this series I was able to conceive, write and publish several unrelated short stories. I'm hoping that by re-creating this lost novel, I'll get my writing muse interested enough to spark other writings. I doubt the women's fiction trilogy that has been my obsession for the last 12 years will ever see publication, but it has helped me to create other writings that have been published.

And I'd love to be published again in 2026. What about you? Any writing goals that have not been fulfilled in 2025?


Thursday, January 1, 2026

FIRST POST, NEW YEAR 2026

 Hello

I'm feeling weird about posting again. Like, restarting an abandoned hobby.

When I started this blog in 2009 by suggestion from an irl writers group friend, I never expected it to go anywhere. I'm not a real life social person, joining the writers group took a lot of courage. The in-person writers group immensely helped my writing career. The group leader was one of the most awesome people I've ever met.

I immersed a lot of my writing personality into the blog life. First, I found people that supported writing activities that encouraged new authors to stretch themselves. To invent, to challenge, to work together. I grew as a writer. I miss those early days of blogging, when the writing journey was everything.

Now, those same blogs are about the sales: how many stories have been written, how many submitted, how many sold, how much money was made, how many good reviews were written. To me, the blogs became a QVC sales event. I couldn't/can't compete; I'll never make it past amateur author. I still like a lot of those people/bloggers though. A "I knew you when" type thing. When the posts were about writing journeys. The writing world has moved on . . .

I admit, I became disgruntled when all the blogs I followed did not publish my writings. But really, I miss those days of writing for the joy of putting words on (computer) paper and enjoying the creation of a story. So, back to the proverbial drawing board for me. I have written. I continue to write for my own pleasure. I have published my short stories in off-beat venues. I may indi-publish my novels, or a collection of my short stories. Someday.

My new year's pledge to myself is to write several times a week. Something new, something I lost, something that may not go anywhere except as a diary entry. Sort of. But all just cuz I enjoy writing, even if no one but me ever reads it. Cuz, ya know; I like writing stories. Even if those stories never go beyond my computer.

New Year's resolution: post twice a month, write three days a week. That qualifies as several times a week to write; yes?

Happy New Year every one. I hope all your writing/publishing/sales dreams come true.

Sunday, October 6, 2024

WEP Halloween Horrorfest






Write Edit Publish has been on sorta sabatical the last few months, but the site has decided to do a special flash post for Halloween.

I'm down; got my story concept. I love Halloween for stories anyways. I love ghastly, bloody horror and thats what I'm gonna write. What would you write/publish for Halloween? Ya know, just for fun.

My entry is shorter than the allowed 1000 words because I'm just out of time to post. I hope its acceptable though.

Title: Dreamer
Genre: horror
word count: 495
All critique acceptable
Tag line: a warriors dream leaves no haven for friends

In the distance bombs burst and flashed, a lightning strobe of orange flames. We ignored the cacophony, the war was no longer our concern. Only the narrow cave mouth drew our attention. Rogers and Shane dropped their automatic weapons and began passing out wooden masks from their packs. Flanning and Peters accepted theirs with dubious looks.

“Put them on” I insisted, securing mine to my head. “We all agreed – too late to back out. By now everyone knows we are deserters and they could have already tracked us here.”

Both men nodded and followed my lead. None of them were certain this was a half buried aqueduct leading to the depths of a temple altar, but they were used to following my lead. I have a sixth sense about dangers, and never get lost in a forest or city.

Rogers handed each of us a torch that stank of fuel oil. We’d light them once inside. The purpose of the masks was to let the Aztec God Huitzilopochtli know we were true worshipers, not Spanish looters. I wasn’t sure how well the masks would protect doubters Flanning and Peters, but I believed.

The dreams were so vivid, so convincing.

I checked the machete looped around my right shoulder, sliding it out slightly and reveling in the smooth pull. The others also checked their weapons – knives, daggers, Peters with a hatchet. I nodded readiness and pushed the others ahead. The feeling of the dreams was stronger now, anxiously pulling at my consciousness.

This was my destiny. My birthright as one of Montezuma’s descendants. I plunged into the thick darkness, screaming laughter.

It wasn’t dark inside. Or quiet. Glittering gold light and echoes bounced off the rock walls. Screams and chanting assaulted me. I called the names of my men, but couldn’t discern an answer. I fumbled in my shirt pocket for my Zippo and lit the torch. The whomp of the ignited fuel seem to silence the echoes and dissolve the light. I called for the men again.

Wooden faces lept at me from the walls. In a panic I dropped the torch and slashed this way and that with the machete. Once I felt a soft impact of something being impaled on the blade, and a voice whispered “NO!” Was that Shane?

Orange light flickered in the distance and I dashed after it. Another voice crooned to me. “This way; hurry,” it urged. The voice from my dreams.

Wet things slithered from the walls and under my feet. Wooden faces and ghostly touches pushed me onward when I fell. Finally I descended into a lower chamber. An altar stood before me, a ring of torch light above. A man lay on across the altar, thrashing and screaming in terror. Flanning.

“The sacrifice,” the Dreamer’s voice suggested.

I tasted the words as they came from my lips. “Yes,” I agreed making my own blood sacrifice with a cut across my forearm. “All of them.”



Friday, August 16, 2024

BotB: Thousand Years





In support of my dear friend Saint Mac (aka Stephen T McCarthy) I decided to post to this Battle of the Bands session with my version of a tribute to our lost blogger friend Far Away Eyes of the blog Far Away Series. I've know FAE for several years, but I can't entirely remember where I met her in the Blogs. Romantic Friday Writers? Maybe even before that?

A long long time ago I was a part of several prompt writing blogs that no longer exist. They were more like open Writers Group. We'd post to prompts where everyone added a line or paragraph to the shared story, or invent concepts where everyone did some research to justify. And we'd share our own writing progress. Long time ago, things that just died out over time. Somewhere in those first few blogs I participated in (2007 or so) is where I think I first met/friended FAE.

Anyway, I friended FAE long before BotB, before IWSG, or Write Edit Publish or . . lol, long long ago. FAE is one of the first online/blogger friends I met IRL. I visited her during my travels at a few of her homes - she moved a lot. She was such a character. Had a vivid outlandish life. I really enjoyed her company, both online and in person. We had great talks about family, life, writing, and the crazy shit we did in our younger days. I loved listening to all her stories, real and created, and sometimes I could not tell the difference.

Maybe I should have made this post a year ago, but FAE had become reclusive and family oriented during the last year of her life and I respected her wishes. I was happy to see some of her family's Face Book posts about her last days with them; the love that was rekindled, the relationships that were mended, the joy FAE gave and received. We should all be grateful to be that loved and cherished at the end of our days.

I'm hoping FAE would approve of my choice of a battle on this day. A message I'm sure she would send to all her family, friends, and online community. And, I send this to FAE, my friend. I miss you.

First up is the original artist Christina Perri singing A THOUSAND YEARS. Christina Perri's song "A Thousand Years" is about the romance between Bella and Edward in The Twilight Saga. Perri wrote the song with her best friend David Hodges after seeing the movie. The song plays during the credits of The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn—Part 1, and fans adopted it as their anthem for the couple's love story. wiki source

If you really know FAE, you know she was sooo into The Twilight Saga. She loved all things YA romance, but this vampire romance in particular. We had some interesting conversations about this Saga over wine and pizza. Yes I've seen the movies (I  have grandchildren of the female persuasion, but I have not read the books.) So, it seems fitting to post the Twilight Saga video. Forwarned,  here's a virtual tissue. Yep, I cry when I listen to this sappy song.

A THOUSAND YEARS by Christina Perri




Its probably unfair to give a popular, well known artist cover a place in the battle, but FAE loved the controversy and had a stubborn streak when it came to matters of opinion. One of the traits I adored most about our conversations. So here I am, a die hard Metal music fan - but when it comes to evocative Romancey type music, well I'm all about the Pop stars. And James Arthur can sing anything to me, and my saggy boobs and butt will melt to his crooning. No alcohol needed to make me sing along. One of those "guilty pleasures" things.


A THOUSAND YEARS by James Arthur



So there's my battle of the bands submission. Click the linky here to find other BotB participants. And please, don't forget to leave a comment and vote for your favorite version of A THOUSAND YEARS.

Thursday, July 4, 2024

Thursday, August 17, 2023

WEP August Challenge: Choclat

Hello All.

When I decided to write a post for Write Edit Publish August flash fiction challenge titled Chocolat,  I didn't realize what a real challenge this was going to be for me. I forgot to write it over the weekend, so I've been at this for the last three days on the road. With my Samsung Galaxy tablet. No mouse, no keyboard, no works program. I wrote it on my work computer, glanced at the word count, somehow copied and emailed it to myself, and figured out how to copy it here. No small feat for someone still attached to a mouse. Not sure I can post the required links to the host blog here, so refer to my sidebar links to WEP Challenges.

When I started writing this I had a different direction for the story of prejudice to take. Prejudice is my interpretation of the movie prompt. Then I fell down a rabbit hole of research that led me to Romania (I was looking for gypsies) and discovered the Iron Guard instead. As I read this for a final proofing before I hit publish, I'm nearly shocked at the potentially offensive content. It's the first time I've read the story in its entirety. Well, too late to back out now.

I hope you're not too offended, and I really hope it meets the basic concept of the prompt. 

Title: Guarding The Chocolate

Word count: less than 1000

Full critique acceptable 

In 1952, Anita Fontain was 22. Her journey to the US, to Iowa in particular, began at her father's knee as she grew into adolescence in Fascist controlled Romania.

 As he relayed to his daughter throughout her childhood, Anri Fontain had migrated to France to become a member of the French Foreign Legionnaires. As an orphaned 15 year old with little education and less ambition for the labor intensive Railroad or River boat industries of Davenport, Iowa he’d become infatuated with newspaper tales of adventure, romance and of course, riches to be had fighting for the French interests in the Sahara Desert. His parents, and grandparents, were proud of their French military lineage dating back to the French occupation of Saint – Domingue, and Anri had visions of military glory.

 Adventure and romance he’d had, but the riches from war campaigns in Africa and Madagascar never fell into his lap. He’d learned French from his father while growing up, and had become fluent in several languages, including Algerian and German, and was happy enough to be transferred to Romania in 1926 to infiltrate a group of disgruntled Legionaires calling themselves the Leigon of the Archangel Michael. Over the next couple years, Anri immersed himself in the paramilitaryy group’s Orthoodox Christian mysticism, unpopular anti-semetiic, anti-communist views, and abandoned the modern thinking Legionnaires. By 1930 when the Legion had changed its name to the Iron Guard, Anri had become a prominent member of the organization, had married well, and fathered his requisite two children – a boy named Cordrea, named after Anri’s mentor, and Anita, a family name in her mother’s heritage.

Of less importance to the Iron Guard’s cause than her older brother, Anita was allowed the indulgence of education, though her father often remonstrated on the folly of the Intellegencia. Anita learned the art of chocolate making from her mother during the family’s exile in Germany, and later earned a culinary degree in the fine art of pastry making.  Although Fascism had fallen out of favor with the end of the second world war, Anita’s father and brother maintained military and political ties to the Party. Their Nazi benefactors kept them informed, armed, and financially sufficient. When the Party secretly issued the recall of the displaced Iron Guard to return to Romania in 1947, Anri and Cordrea were well equipped to return to their prior life.

 Anita and her mother had remained in Germany until her college graduation. Without the constant barrage of propaganda and limited social connections allowed by her father during the Iron Guards ascendency to power in Romania, Anita found herself increasingly open to the rising tide of remorse within the German population. The more she learned about the “atrocities” committed by her family’s political associations, the less sure of herself, and her place in the larger world, she became.

 In Romania, even as young as 13, she was a gregarious creature, always the center of attention. Parents thrust their children into her life for companions, and many a time she overheard conversations involving marriage between either mother and her society ladies, or her father’s smoking gentlemen. At the time it had pleased her to be so well liked and desired. Her mother had instilled in Anita a sense of pride for their family position, and the obligations that carried, even to the appropriate marriage for both Anita and Cordrea. Cordrea only had aspirations for war and violence; but Anita had her favorites among her potential suiters. She practiced writing her name and title, dreaming of her future children and hosting her own society ladies parties.

 She was destined to be a socialite, and until her time in Germany, she was blissfully unaware of the darkness surrounding her sheltered life. And she wondered: did her mother know of the nefarious activities of her husband? Did she approve?

 So Anita immersed herself in the world of chocolate, avoiding the growing tensions in her family, in world politics, and the increasing amount of bullying she’d started receiving since her father’s return to Romania. Even her mother had become more secluded, eschewing the company of her new German acquaintances in favor of the familiar refugee wives who had journeyed with them to this divided country. Gone were the animated conversations of marriage alliances, of gay spring parties and summer vacations to Switzerland. They spoke in whispers now especially in public, often reverting to French or English to avoid the scrutiny of authorities that their native Romanian language attracted.

 The news of her father’s murder and brother’s disappearance during a political coupe just weeks prior to her graduation was devastating, but not surprising. And came as almost a relief to Anita. She couldn’t imagine returning to Romania now, but also didn’t fancy remaining in Germany. Her father’s friends had discouraged them from returning for the clandestine funeral, and now her mother had begun wearing a green shirt in her mourning. The apparel was drawing too much attention from their German benefactors, whose continued financial support had begun to wan in the last couple years.

 Grasping the reins of an uncertain future, Anita decided to take her culinary talents to America. It took a year to secure immigration to Iowa, the birthplace of her father. Davenport reminded her Bucharest with its heavy French heritage and Catholic Orthodoxy. She was comfortable in their anonymity almost from their first day. Her mother’s strange habit of wearing bags of earth around her neck and the green shirts did not cause the stir it had in Germany. She felt no hatred here, only curiosity.

 “Chocolate,” she asked brightly to a group of young passerby’s at her booth.

 She was determined to make her fortune in this new world, one bite at a time, as she perfected her own divine recipe that would dislodge the dominant Fudge fanatasicm in this city once and for all. Her father would disapprove of her capitalist dreams; but, hadn’t the life he’d made for his family been rich with oppressive hipocracy?